Sunday, September 26, 2010
Where's the Whimsey?
I have realized something. I keep finding myself attracted to whimsey- in art, in decorating, in the kinds of things one chooses for one's self. I just can't seem to put it into my own art! It is frustrating the living daylights out of me!!! I admire very colorful art, yet mine is soft, muted colors. I like strong shapes, yet mine are soft and flowy. I think this means something. So I am on a quest for my inner whimsicality (did I just make that word up?). I think it is hard to find for a couple reasons: 1) I was born with a serious nature (but that doesn't mean I don't have a playful side) 2) My playful, immaginative side was squelched, squished, and squashed so badly when I was young, that it has been terrified to peek out other than vicariously. I still appreciate the artistic and creative gifts that I do have, and I say that because a part of me wants to undervalue them just because they're not what I want at the moment. As I have learned from so many on my journey, I must appreciate what I do have if I want to have more. Which reminds me, I have slipped in my gratitude practice these days, as well, and I always feel happier when I pay attention to that. I have had so many health challenges lately, along with mechanical issues of various types, I seem to have gotten away from a lot of conscious living. Well of course you have, Julia! You've been asleep for days! AND that's okay. It's good, even! You are taking care of yourself. I guess the urge I am feeling to move on is a sign I am feeling better! Hurrah! I am a so-o-o-o much happier person than I used to be, and I am so grateful for the many various influences that have helped me get that way, mostly Alanon and self-help books. (I've read almost every one ever written, haven't I.) and I am grateful to my self for having the moxie to pursue recovery, and infinitely grateful for the grace of God. I don't know why I got so "lucky" when the rest of my family still suffers. Now I need to find a book on how to proceed on this quest for inner whimsey. I love the internet and search engines.....
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